Lost.

God damn this stupid show for being so dodgy.
God damn it for all of it's never ending story lines, plot twists and hot men with hot accents, whom are constantly shirtless, sweating and loaded to the tits with facial hair. And god damn it for the spooky music that scares me more than the random, 'others' and smoke monsters.

Just, God. Damn. It.

I tried to make a sauce today out of Brandy, cream and sugar for the pumpkin pie. Unfortunately while trying to make said sauce, the Columbian student that's living with my mother was interogating me over where she could buy shoes in Toronto and I lost my stirring pace and so the sugar burnt. I cried.
So the pumpkin pie was brandy-less and I felt a bit shit for it because I sincerely wanted my pie to be full of yummy alcoholic brilliance.

Fucking Columbians.

Neil is a balmy character.
I'm flattered that he is intrigued by me, I'm completely baffled as to why he still is, but it's nice. I'm more inclined to meet him the more we speak because he's disgustingly reassuring. I'm terrified that he won't be attracted to me upon first glace and while I'm well aware that I shouldn't give my time to a, 'knuckle head' who is completely infatuated (wink), with my mind, character and soul, but not body, I am very inclined to feel like an absolute pile of crap because of it.
And if that is the case, I hope he just tells me that or at least, takes note of my "going home post", so that I don't have to deal with the bullshit yet again.

I'm confused by this. I don't understand what he wants from me and I definitely do not understand what I could possibly give him. Currently I think he wants to fuck me because I've caused a ridiculous amount of sexual frustration for his poor soul and he would like to alieviate that problem as soon as possible, in whatever context he can have it.

I can't say that I blame him.

I'm sure I'm a very mysterious personality and I'm sure that I have a lacivious phone voice that could potentially destroy any man's willpower, but why he likes me, the "Enid", I don't think I will ever understand.

Probably because he seems so indifferent (wink x2).