Stupid Men.

I'm not sure if you've ever experienced it and I don't think that you'll ever want to if you haven't, but staying in the home of an ex boyfriend, when you are in love with somebody else is an incredibly awkward experience.

You begin to notice the little things that ended the relationship.
The socks in the corner of the bathroom, the paper receipts from the bankmachine strewn all over the kitchen table - or the masturbation box of kleenex perched beside the computer... The man who asks you to buy fifty-four dollars worth of beer because he can't go one night without a drink. Being put on hold while he shoots the shit with his friends while my tires spin in a snowbank. Ah yes, the memories.

That's when the shiver runs down your spine. The destructive power of the cold acknowledgment that you dated someone who was completely incompatible leaves you feeling a bit ill, a bit used and really fucking grossed out.

Did I really let that thing stick his dick in me? Ugh.

I don't think I'll ever understand how men could have this huge need to be with a women, but still manage to do all the right things to make women never want them.

A man that I met over the internet has been asking me to meet him for almost 1/2 a year now. I've never lead him on, never gave him any promises of a meeting other than, "maybe I can meet up with you over the weekend", but fortunately, never managed to find the time to do so.
This weekend the question came up again and I reluctantly said, "Maybe I'll be able to do something on Saturday night." By the time work was over, all I wanted to do was sit at home and stew in the glorious sense of nothingness, so I sent him a message on msn saying that tonight wasn't going to work and that perhaps we could do it another time.

He freaked.

Apparently I'm not a good friend. Apparently I'm a liar and I lead him on for the better part of six months. Apparently his intentions were to not sleep with me tonight.

Yup, I think I made the right decision.

To be fair I never really felt right about meeting him ever since I met Bryce. I didn't think it was fair to him and so I guess for the past two months I never had an intention of meeting him, but that still doesn't make me a tease.

Men are fucking stupid.